Anonymous asked: How to move on?
this is a journal entry on my secret blog that i wrote last year when i got my heart broken. maybe this will help a little?
Heartbreak is one of the worst feelings in the world. It legitimately feels like your heart has broken into a million pieces. The pain is inevitable. All you want to do is cry and lay in bed and never leave the house. You find yourself drowning in your tissues. You feel lifeless, unable to feel happiness or act like all normal human beings because all you want is to be dead or wrapped in that person’s arms. You scream. You cry. You beat yourself up mentally. You repetitively ask yourself why this has happened. Was it me? Was it you? What would’ve happened if things had gone differently? You run through so many scenarios in your head. You reminisce on memories of the two of you. You torture yourself by reading old texts and Skype conversations with him. You listen to old voicemails he’s left you just so you can hear his voice. You listen to sad songs which cause you to cry so hard that you feel like you’re dying. You cry all of the time. You fall asleep crying. You wake up crying. You get in the shower and just bawl your eyes out. You vow to remove him from your life, but you end up texting him asking him why he hurt you. You jump at the chance of drinking alcohol or doing drugs because you think it will mask the pain for once night, but really you just end up sobbing and drunk dialing them. You wait for them to want you back, even though you know they never will. You think it will never get better, but one day you wake up feeling different. The sun is shining brighter and you can feel your chest has loosened. You find yourself laughing and smiling again. You feel okay when you leave the house. You no longer feel the need to take 30 minute showers just so you can cry. You start to look at boys again without comparing them to him. You’re better. Of course there’s always that night where you lay on the floor with your face buried in your hands and just cry. But there’s hope that this feeling won’t last forever. You can finally feel other emotions besides heartbreak. You finally start to heal.